Sweet Dependence

My mom called today to tell me about a high school friend of mine who is going through her own cancer journey with her husband. My friend and her mom have both told my mom how my blog has helped them. How humbling! I'm so happy to hear that my journey is accomplishing some good. And who would've thought I'd ever have a blog and that people would actually read it! I started out blogging just to keep family and friends updated and found it to be very therapeutic for me. It's icing on the cake that my experiences and words are beneficial to others!

One of the neatest things I've experienced in my cancer journey is a sweet dependence on God. I pray that comes through in my blog posts. How do people survive life without God? It's sad I haven't always had this same dependence when things haven't been as tough. That's one thing I'm determined to change. I want my soul to thirst for God, for the living God (Psalm 42:2). I want to be totally dependent on him - a sweet dependence on my great and mighty God!

I've mentioned before that Christian music has been a huge help in keeping me focused on who God is and what He does. Earlier in this journey I gained strength from songs about God being healer, moving mountains, and how no matter what life brings that we won't be shaken. This morning in church we sang Not For a Moment by Meredith Andrews. Music always makes me emotional, and today was no different. I had tears in my eyes as I sang about how God has not forsaken me and my family. In all our heartache, tears, worry, doubt, tests, surgeries, and treatments, He was there carrying us. He is constant, good, and sovereign. I am so thankful to serve a great and mighty God!

You were reaching through the storm
Walking on the water
Even when I could not see
In the middle of it all
When I thought You were a thousand miles away
Not for a moment did You forsake me
Not for a moment did You forsake me

After all You are constant
After all You are only good
After all You are sovereign
Not for a moment will You forsake me
Not for a moment will You forsake me

You were singing in the dark
Whispering Your promise
Even when I could not hear
I was held in Your arms
Carried for a thousand miles to show
Not for a moment did You forsake me

And every step, every breath, You are there
Every tear, every cry, every prayer
In my heart, at my worst
When my world falls down
Not for a moment will You forsake me
Even in the dark
Even when it's hard
You will never leave me

Not for a moment will You forsake me